Its been awhile

wow I haven't been on here in forever and so much has happened since then! Well lemme just sum everything up My toxic (emotionally & financially) abusive husband left us. tried to come back many times but I stood my ground and refused him. I had just gotten so depressed it was the worst depression I had had in a very long time. There was days I couldn't speak or eat or even move from the couch other than to take care of my littles. I had had enough and when he left I immediately felt the fog start to lift. I wont lie I had to fight myself many times to not go back to him and I had this happy depression after he left like half of me was relieved but the other half was scared and heartbroken I could barley eat only forcing myself bites here and there to have enough energy to take care of my children. I gave myself a few weeks to heal but then I had to get up and push through after all I had a family to take care of. I got a job almost immediately after I started applying places and it was enough pay that I could do everything I needed to. My sister was staying with me not only helping me out with bills but babysitting as I was for her. unfortunately that didn't last very long after I started to heal. She started seeing a ex of mine and even though I voiced not only my feelings on the matter but my teen sons as well she didn't care. I placed new rules on the house telling her she wasn't allowed to bring men over to the house anymore , she didn't like that she felt as if I was trying to prevent her from love. I explained if she wanted to be with my ex that was shitty but fine she just couldn't do it in my home. It was not just about my ex it was also about safety. well she chose him packed up her kids and moved back into my moms house. leaving me to pay everything by myself and find a new sitter. I handled it. Well here I am months later living paycheck to paycheck but I am happier than I have ever been in my life and my home is a happy one. I know I did the right thing and I feel as if I'm finally on the right path I only wish it hadnt of taken me so long to get here.