i have so much on my mind

does anyone else, like. find living... weird? the consept that you are thrown into being consious is so odd to me? and the fact that we just die after. it makes me genuinely not believe this is all there is, to everything. that the universe, being consious and being alive is the whole point, whats outside of consiousness? is it something humans cant comprehend? is it nothing? if so, does living matter? whats the point of living 9if its just going to end anyway? im not like, suicidal, not at all!!! but the point of living seems so pointless, it confuses me beyond explanation. theres so many things i think about consiousness that i cant put into words. if anyone relates, PLEASE reply. id love to hear your view.