why?

Why is it so hard to sleep? Why is it so hard to want to live? Why does the mental hospital just make everything worse? Why do i fuck everything up even when i dont know what the fuck i did? Why do i have to be insane? Why do the voices make me feel more worthless? Why do i fuck up talking to people? Why do i want to end it all the time?

i think its time i take my life, i dont know if people actually care about me anymore if they ever did to begin with. i think im ready to leave everything, ive lost it all is such a short period of time