Family weekend uuuuuO

Soo I just had family weekend- as every year YAYY

it's just- old ppl make me rlly aggressive and I often just have the urge to yell at em or punch em in the face. pls- don't make me be the only one who feels that way:/

ANYWAYS 

ive always been told the family meeting's there so me and my two favorite cousins get to know from whom we descend. but honestly- I'd rather forget about it that get to know em better. and the funny thing- my cousins don't like em either. so we just sat two tables away (btw. the main evening is always in a restaurant). also, the two are two and a half years older than me. 

By the time we ordered everything we literally left and went outside for almost like- 45-50 mins. we just sat at the parking lot a few meters away and talked, and laughed, and had deep talks, and smoked. it was just fine. we talked about my cousins gf and about my other cousins first kiss. they also asked me if I feel more comfortable being me now cos I struggled a bit last year- finding out my sexuality and so on. surprise- I had a gf. but because I wear an ace kinda festival bracelet by now we just chatted. =im not gonna deepen that=

when we got back in our food obviously was cold YUM

but as soon as we finished it we already left again to walk a lil bit. the evening was pretty great, we could spend time alone and away from the others and we got along well with each other. my one cousin even offered me their flannel button up blouse cause I wore a really warm zip up hoodie to cover up- yk, everything. and they just had it w them so I didn't just took it away. that actually made me reeeaalllyy happy and when I think about it those lil bubbles still pop up!! :)

we eventually sat down in sum of those benches that are designed like a swing. there were music boxes everywhere so we sang sometimes lol. 

i can't tell u everything- but it was really great, basically the best one yet. they rlly are a safe place. hope u understood a lil bit :°

bye my dudes, dudettes and dudon'ts!