No no I get it

It’s just that I thought you actually cared about me too

I just can’t take this one sided shit any more

For a while there I actually had hope, I actually felt happy for a short few moments. But it’s jarring to always be the one to reach out and ask and try to get to you.. it’s painful to give this much and only receive some little crumbs in return and that’s not something I can do. It’s like my whole family trauma all over again but with slightly more love in the beginning and I hate that I feel for this again. Even if it’s not on purpose it’s hurting me more than I want to admit but I will admit it and leave this as is. 

Which is sad because I really trusted you and felt safe with you. I still miss you too much but I have to let go 

For my own sanity and peace of mind at least 

It was beautiful for whatever short lived thing it was tho so I am thankful for that

I will be more careful now to trust anyone