sleep

hiii, i have a question for everyone. do y'all understand the feeling of being both sleep deprived being both your mind and yourself own fault? main reason I'm asking is because my mind keeps me up more and more, plus i even distract myself on my phone or reading, or drawing, or even homework i should have done before but lost complete focus on. like when i try to actually sleep, i don't get any. but when i don't try i could either be hours or even just pass out right then. for example in school (main classes i actually sleep in yet pass are biology, geometry honors, Spanish, and English) i could be doing work and then suddenly the words I'm reading on the page gets blurry, like the feeling your both losing focus and getting bored and feeling your soon to pass out, and I'm trying to focus and I would have to reread even a sentence of ten times just to understand it yet i would forget immedity or i just can't read it because it is just blurry. but i would finally give up the fight for nothing and close my eyes for a few second to get back to work, and i don't even feel I'm passing out but i would wake up at the end of class only to realize it ended. and not even the worst part, when i actually try to sleep, i can be up for hours trying to sleep, i can play music or be in silence and still not sleep. putting my mind at ease is like you're trying to win a one man fight from millions which i normally don't win. it's too tiring, plus feeling tired almost constantly, like something's draining my energy, when i get real good sleep for a while. If anyone knows what to do, i would be shocked but there is my sleeping rant, thanks.