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People will think I'm weird cuz I take interest in gore art and goregrind music, but when people show me real gore, I get genuinely upset. That's fine, it's understandable why you'd think that way. But I'm just built different, and so are a lot of people into the stuff I'm into.
I think what's important in a human, is how they handle certain situations. Not their interests. I don't care if you aren't into what I'm into. But if your mindset is something I can get with, I wanna be your friend.
I like gore fiction because it's my way of blowing off steam. I'm just morbid like that. But when it comes the real gore, it's not the gore itself that's off-putting to me, but the fact that I am watching a living human being who had a future ahead of them, having their right to life taken away from them. It's not disgust, it's sympathy.
My childhood was morbid, so I got desensitized. But not desensitized in a way that I don't care or think it's funny, but desensitized in a way that if I were to end up in a situation where I were placed in a situation were I had to witness the real thing (As much as I don't want that), I would (hopefully) keep a straight mind and be able to take action to fix the issue without panicking too much.
It's happened before with my mother. When my dad was beating her till she bruised because he thought she was cheating. I had been so used to watching the real life thing AND fictional depictions of it on sites like Newgrounds throughout my childhood, that I didn't panic. I just stayed calm, picked up the phone, moved to the other room and called the cops, making sure the first thing I mentioned was the address. And boom, now we're living happily in a safe new home away from him.
Normally, desensitization to dark subjects would make a child completely undermine the seriousness of it. But for me, it sort of did the opposite, it made me realize that it's not as rare as I thought. So I think to myself, am I just gonna be prepared to sit there and panic or chill out and do something about it?
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xX_Berrie_Black_Xx
For me, it is both disgust and sympathy. Empathy as well. I can only handle so much. It is enough to be shown cartoony or real-ish anime (like Danganronpa or Persona) gore-art, but show me any pictures, GIFs, or videos living creature die or get severely harmed, and I am to disgusted and upset to even go back and block you.
That's a reasonable reaction too. But for me, witnessing a human corpse in the drain of my neighborhood as a child, at first I was traumatized but eventually I got morbidly curious and decided to search online if anyone had reported it to the authorities (I was 12, I didn't know what to do or where the police station was), and it somehow led me down a rabbit hole of gore sites which eventually desensitized me from a disgust perspective into a completely sympathy focused perspective.
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