I feel so ugly. I just wanna curl up and die. I hate when people say "noo you're pretty! " cus no I'm not you can stop lying. I can see myself in the mirror and all I can think is "that bitch needs a salad and a nose job. " I'm a pig in lipstick. there's so denying it anymore. all I can do is cry about it and starve myself and that doesn't even work. I gain weight so easily and it takes forever to shave off it's horrible. everytime I date someone immediately after we break up they go for someone skinnier and prettier with long hair and a small waist. how am I supposed to still feel pretty after that?? it's a gut punch especially since it's always right after the breakup. not a few month wait. no it's always a couple weeks MAX. and it's fucking horrible. everytime I use one of those bmi tracker things it says overweight no matter what I do. it's seriously horrible and dehumanizing. I'm 5'6 and 148 is that really that bad????. I can't even get anyone anymore despite my efforts of looking good. I've lost as much weight as I can I put pounds of makeup on what am I supposed to do? sometimes guys just talk to me to tell me I'm ugly, fat, or unfunny. like I'm sorry I really am. im sorry you had to look at me and my disgusting body for longer than you ever wanted to with no prior warning. I'm. so. fucking. sorry.
(warning!! this contains me ranting like a little bitch)
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