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hello my fellow (probably nonexistent) blog readers! :D 

I´ve come here to rant a little bit :/

I realized while in school, that I´m a fucking loner lmao while it may not seem as a problem to my classmates and they like to include me in their little banters I still can´t consider them as my friends yk because they never include me in their plans and all that jazz but I am still greatful for them making me feel less lonely in school than I actually am

You may now think; dude, it is your fault for not making an effort to make friends ( while that is true ) 

it has a lot to do with my shyness and my actual deteste towards my other classmates as they dont make any efforts either or just glare at me \._./

I do wish there would be people whom I can befriend who are in my area and already have a bad impression only by seeing me wtf 

Is that maybe too much to ask for?????????