tired..

It's only been two weeks of school and I already am missing school because I just can't bring myself to go. It's such a pain my body hurts every morning and I feel so weak everyday especially with the high heat... I want to drop out, but I also don't want to I have only 2 more years but with this all of the pain and tiredness I can't keep going on like this. It's so bad that I've been really close to relapsing and harming myself again sometimes I even have this stronger urge to just end it. I have to walk home so when I get to house, I don't feel that relief that everyone else feels I know as soon as I get home it's still going to be as stressful as school was... well guess I can't do too much about it.