Wow

i just logged onto here for the first time in ages and saw all my blogs from when i was obsessing over the guy i liked and just,, wow, I felt that way for HIM??? he literally was the worst!! like,, he literally body-shamed me behind my back, tried getting me to lie to my mother, was using me to get to the girl who was my best friend at the time and just, used me in general. i cant believe i was like that over him. someone better deserves my obsession, not him.

anyways! i've found comfort in my friends, my friends are awesome but i just *crave* a romantic relationship y'know? i crave the physical touch, the cuddles, the kisses, the hand holding, the hugs, but also like, telling someone i love them and them saying it back and meaning it romantically, i miss going on dates, i feel empty without a relationship, like there's no reason to me being here