Entry 3.

September 6th 2023

Today was horrible one again. Nothing truly interesting happened at school today. I thought today would go well considering how it started, I should've remembered the world didn't owe me a cent. I got home to my mother yelling at me to get ready to go to her workplace to study. I found it annoying because I was trying to make plans with my big sister before hand.

She got pissed at me for telling her when she was the one who recommended me go do something with my sister recently. I don't understand what my mother wants from me. I don't believe she actually loves me apart from my grades at school. 

In all honesty I'd keep writing this if it weren't for how upset this is making me. I hate living like this. I yearn for the day I finally kill myself and not have to deal with living in this glorified hell of a household. Everyone thinks my life if perfect outside of school / work but it's awful and that's not even counting the mental illnesses I suffer from.

I want to disappear.