life update ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა💗

                      ☆ wednesday, sep 6, 2023 ☆                          

oh my god i completely forgot about spacehey ๐·°(⋟﹏⋞)°·๐ i'll actually try to update this

ok, to summ up everything in the past few weeks, i have gotten hospitalized due to psychiatric reasons, it's my 18th day here and 18th day trying to recover from severe depression ૮₍ ´ ꒳ `₎ა i'm speaking to a psychiatrist on alternative days and he said that next week i might go home, i'm so happy, i will finally experience life how it really is, i'm truly getting better and changing my head, i'm really excited to see what opportunities life brings me and how everything is going to be completely different and i'm having to rebrand my entire perception of the world but i'm commited to it. i have hope things are going to get better ｀･ω･)9！

today i didn't do much, you lose track of time at the hospital, but i watched sponge bob and had an everything bath! i felt refreshed, i needed and deserved that. i'm coloring a lot here ૮₍｡´ᴖ ˔ ᴖ`｡₎ა it's really relaxing but i have to do it with crayons

aaand i'm going to a new school (੭˃ᴗ˂)੭💗💗💗🙌🙌!!! my old one was way too strong and harsh, i couldn't keep up with anything and i would think that i was dumb for it, i didn't know i had depression but i just couldn't bring myself to do any of my homework, i didn't care about my grades because i didn't see me being alive in the future, but now i'm in a different process, i know my worth, i'm learning how to treat myself like a deserve and see that life isn't to suffer in a school which makes me feel stupid. i'm going to a new one that is wayyy lighter and i have hope i'll have healthy relationships, make friends and enjoy being there. i'm so excited for this new life

the psychiatrist still hasn't come today, but i'll see if he sends me home this weekend (੭˃ᴗ˂)੭ i'm so excited