Hiiii, it's me, Robbie!!! and today i'm going to talk about why i can't stand my friends!! 

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Today's blog will be in English!

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So, today I was at the gym for a while, I thought about some things and I really don't understand why I've been in such a bad mood lately... Well, I can understand most of them, and it's that my friends treat me like shit ! 

 
Well... at least they weren't as bad as my old friends who used to beat me up and abus* me, but the treatment I receive is still strange.

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I mean, I worry about them all the time and make sure they're always alright, however, whenever I'm blue they never bother to help me, and that makes me feel bad.

I really feel like I'm a nuisance in that group, and even these days I've been thinking of staying away for a week to keep calm, or maybe I'll stay away for 10 days?

The only problem I have is that I'M SCARED AND PANICKED that I'm gone for a long time and they don't notice, or what if after I'm gone for a long time they realize I'm a dead bug in the group and then they will want to take me out?

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I'm not going to lie to you, you can say "ohh, but those aren't real friends" or "it's better alone than in bad company" or "it's better if you stay away" BUUT it's very difficult for me to get away from them because (After all) I love them so much, And really, despite the fact that they do not listen to me or support me, I am accompanied much of the time.

maybe I'm overthinking things, and I really wish I was, because I don't want to think that I gave my heart to the wrong people again.

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I also feel that everything is going wrong since I went out with a guy from the group... yeah... everything was going so well at the beginning, but now I don't know how to feel, I think the spark between us suddenly went away.

I don't know if he's really a BAD person and he just wants to have s*x with me, or I'm really overthinking things; Last time we argued over something stupid and he didn't speak to me for 3 f*cking days! Those three days helped me think things through and maybe I'll stop talking to him.

My cousins say to leave him, since he really is manipulative and immature, but I don't know how to leave him without making him feel bad.

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although I have to admit that today I was treating him badly so that he would get away from me, but he didn't, and now I feel very guilty for having treated him like that.

Soss the question arises, dear audience <3

Does he really love me or does he just want to f*ck me?

Let's find out at the next funeral!!! (It will be my funeral, because if things continue as they are, I'M F*UCKING GONE!)

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 Ohhhh, and one thing i forgot to mention, if i walk away from them i cant do it in full as i go to the gym WITH SOMEONE FROM THE GROUP! LFMAO

That was all for today's blog, dear vampires, tomorrow I'll see if I have time to update many things that I want to say and I didn't manage to write.

Tschüss!!!!

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