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is it just me who doesnt want to grow up but also wants to grow up reaaaaaallllllllll bad?

like I fr hate when everything changes but its also kinda nice IDK LIKE I have this friend at my school that I was REALLY good friends with but the next year after summer we didn't have any classes together so we just looked at each other weirdly in the hallways (he's a boy AND HE GOT A DUMB ASS HAIRCUT ITS SO BAD THAT I FEEL LIKE I CANT LOOK AT HIM IN THE EYE W/ LAUGHING) BUT anyways like I'm always thinking about how fast things go by and how you can never really re-live anything because once a second is gone it's gone for good yk? I want things to stay the same but I also want things to change for the better, I like the way things are but I want to see what will happen in a couple years Will I stay the same? will I grow into a boring adult? will I ever get what want? Does everything go the way I want it to go? Or does everything fall apart? Its weird but I think about it all the time. I witteraly don't even know