nightmare nightmare (rambling)

another day, another oh my god it’s INSANE how bad my manager is at making a schedule like what is this BULLSHIT!!! it’s crazy. i mean, he already fucking sucked but it was never this bad. at least all the roles were filled, and the problem before was usually just shit hours and short staffed, but the god damn roles were filled. but nowadays i have to run the front end AND do floorcare? how do you expect me to do both when floorcare means i have to run around and focus my time on cleaning. the floor. and no baggers? hello? so i gotta do all the nightly chores myself anyways? oh? we don’t have a cleaner either? and none of the coworkers scheduled with me know how to clean? so i have to crash course a bunch of 16 year old’s who somehow don’t know how to fucking sweep ¿¿¿

am i insane. is sweeping such a hard task. it’s common sense right? i know the place i work at is a wealthier area so there’s a distinct Disconnect, but i mean surely that can’t make you a moron that you don’t know how to do the basics of cleaning. right. AM I INSANE.

cherry on top was my other office staff coworker having An Episode. it wasn’t that bad, honestly, it would have been worse if they started seizing (what do i do then. i gotta look that up or something.) but for a moment when they came out of the back office just slurring and stumbling about i was truly . a bit scared. i thought they were gonna fall over. had to make him sit down and call the manager in charge for the night. that was so awesome and cool. not to sound like i’m blaming them for their condition, btw, it just felt like god was really screwing with me there. a little last fuck you before i finally finished everything (30 minutes after i was supposed to clock out. coooooooooool) and basically ran out the store before anyone could tell me a thing. i don’t care! whatever didn’t get done or wasn’t done right you can tell me when i get back on weds. i’ll deal with it then. i have to get fillings tomorrow which also just suck. ugh.

not all is bad. district manager shouted me out, said i was doing a real good job. my manager and team lead were all excited, and i was a little Haha Nice :) about it too but. tbh. anybody can really do this job if they have a spine and common sense, so the bar there is pretty low. at least, however, this means i have good favor and my chances of getting that sweet promotion (((((money raise. all for the money. idgaf about the actual position or title.))))) are looking pretty good . (o_o)b

also tried really hard not to talk the ear off my coworker about star trek. i’ve really gotta try and go to a convention one of these days, just to have fun and get some trinkets and maybe meet other fans and whatnot. which just reminds me, i finally ordered the novelization of star trek: the motion picture & wrath of khan. i’m about to be so insane, it’s unreal. especially with tmp. me reading The Roddenberry Footnote like it’s a scripture from the Bible fr. excited for new lower decks too, really hope we get some more tendi and t’lyn moments they really are so cute. gbuh!!!!!

the time is 1:19am, i should really go to sleep. i won’t though, because my brain lately has decided to not shut up. i figured it was my phone? but even when i tried the method of leaving my phone in another room, i still couldn’t sleep. maybe i need a new mattress or something?? who knows. anyways, hopefully after this little post of mine, i’ll fall asleep or something. hope so. i think i prefer that brief period of time where all i had were nightmares, at least i still got some semblance of sleep then 😵‍💫