I feel all alone

Siting at my desk staring at my computer. 

What do I do now? I look around my surroundings. I look back at my computer. 

There's nothing. 

I mean not literally. There's everything I can do. 

But to me?

Its nothing. 

I close my computer and lay in bed. 

I go through my phone reading Fanfiction just to escape. 

Music blaring into my ears to drown out the loneliness. 

I'm alone.

I don't have friends. 

Well I do. But well are we actually friends? Everything feels fake. My friendships feel so out of reach while I'm drowning in this depth of a loneliness pit.

But its my fault. I'm not reaching.

 Is it to late? 

Maybe. 

I shake my head and continue reading. Continue listening. Maybe this fantasy can help me escape. Make me forget how utterly boring I am. 

How alone I am...