hey..

so... my amazing boyfriend and me broke up about a month ago and I'm very suicidal now. and I need to talk about what he did. it doesn't matter if no one sees this I still wanna talk about it. and if anyone does see this then hey ig. one day I was at his house and taking a nap and he raped me. I only found out cus I told him I felt weird down there and he told me. I felt so gross and I genuinely lost all trust for him it was horrible. now that we've broken up were still friends and we still hang out sometimes. having said that he's left me hanging or bailed on me so many times after I've taken hours getting ready. there are much more things he's done but I'm ngl I can barely remember thode. ive blocked them off in my mind to protect myself from the pain of thinking why he would do that. :(