I’m scared for my future of possible wlw relationships/friendships

Truth be told I just long for having a relationship and or friendship with other women and enbies. I have little to no social skills due to being mostly homeschooled. And when i was in school, I was bullied, but there’s truly nothing more in life that I want then at the very least a friendship with another woman/or enby. I would kill to have a farm where we could work on. Have our own animals make and drink our own milk, have fresh eggs for the breakfast. So on so forth. BUT with all the anti LGBTQ+ bills and project 2025, I’m starting to think I might never be accepted in this world.

My lack of social skills, the fact probably autistic (words from my therapist.) my lack of experience with relationships and friendships in general, along with my age (21 fem nb) has made it increasingly harder and harder to make friends. Plus alot of people cringe over my “childish” interests. I don’t have a car, I’m broke, I’m disabled, plus sized and I’m not in school so I can’t even make friends or s/o’s that way. I’m on plenty of forums, groups and social medias trying to find people i can at the very least relate to. I need to be friends with a person before I could date them and I’m not really interested in sex (like ig we can do it later on but i rather not), which decreases my options. I really just don’t know what to do 😔🙁

I really just really want people to love platonicly and romantically. And alot of people don’t want monogamous? (Idk if that’s the right word,) serious relationships these days…. and like thats all I really want 😭