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Brief warning that I've done my best to be as vague as possible abt spoilers (mostly 707, V, and Ray route) but they are discussed so if there's somehow still new fans or you just haven't gotten there you are forewarned.
I've recently been delving into a lot of my older interests because the nostalgia and familiarity comforts me in my lower moods and I started playing Mystic Messenger again because of that!! I never uninstalled the app cuz I never actually stopped being interested in it, from the start it's been my goal to 100% it, it's just been a while because it's such a big commitment and a lot of things were going on in my life. It does still feel like reliving a huge wave of nostalgia tho since it's been so long and the fandom is very scarce now so I rarely ever hear about it. I've forgotten soooo much so it's a little like seeing the story for the first time and it's just as thrilling as it was back then which has really fanned the fire of my excitement! There's also soooo much that I vividly remember that gives me the nostalgic feeling of looking back on this game that I loved and remembering why I loved it :)).
In my initial plan to 100% everything I decided to do my best to get every possible good ending first (including after endings) and then I'd tackle neutral and bad endings and then finally all the addons/dlcs. I've done every good ending so far but I never got to finish the good end for the Ray route after ending. They made it so much more complicated than every other one but I think it's cuz it was the last full route they could add to the base game. I decided to replay the Ray good ending before I start the after ending again because I mostly remembered like the first 5 or 6 days of it and then my memory gets blurry.
Currently on day 3 and this game has me so fucking emotional like it was seriously one of the biggest things that got me through middle school. I just had that one chat with Ray where he talks about friendship and flower languages and you can ask him the meaning of specific flowers. Lily of the Valley has been my favorite flower ever since the first time I read that chatroom and he has me literally wanting to cry.
I also got my mom to preorder the special believer package for my birthday when it came out and read the section about flower languages in his diary and then saw the bookmark he gives you correlated to the diary entry and that specific chatroom log. That literally had me dying like that bookmark was my prized possession. THEN I LOST IT >:(((( I still think about that sometimes randomly without even being reminded of MM and then I get mad at myself all over again bc there's no way I'm ever buying the entire package just to get the bookmark but like I want it back so badly :(((. I still have everything else from the package in my closet tho other than the little Mint Eye believer card I have no idea where that is but idrc cuz it has my deadname on it in permanent marker lol. When I logged back into the game and went to my profile to change my picture I saw the Mint Eye badge they put there if you bought the package and I forgot about it so it made me smile.
They also lowered the prices of all the stuff in the store and it's awesome I got call cards for Ray, V, and Jaehee and I already had one for 707 in middle school so I'm set for all my faves I absolutely love it. I'm not so worred about hourglasses anymore either because they're not super pricey. For my birthday I once asked for my mom to buy me the 2000 pack of hourglasses and I went through a lot of effort to stretch that shit out for as long as possible like when I finally logged back in 3 days ago I still had 247 hourglasses from the combination of that purchase, the ones you get in the chat, and turning my hearts into hourglasses. It took me a long time to learn that I could turn hearts into hourglasses lmao by the time I did I already had over 100,000 hearts. It was also before they added the feature where you can press max on the conversion so I had to sit there and click it over and over for each 100 hearts it was pain.
It's a lot nicer playing this game now because I'm currently in a period of time where I rarely have anything going on so I don't have to worry about the awkward schedule. I worked really hard in middle school to be able to play the game during the day and my routine strategy was actually very successful but being this free makes it so much less tedious and stressful. I mostly just set alarms for the early morning chats and that's it. I also set alarms for the late night ones just in case but I'm always up that late anyway lol. It's too bad after this 11 day route I'm gonna be starting my course to become a certified phlebotomist and every class is a consecutive 4 hours so I'll have to stop playing. I'm hoping the inbetween phase after the course while I'm applying for jobs will take a while so I can maybe get a few tries in. I'm genuinely not sure how long it'll take tho cuz job hunting usually isn't immediate but phlebotomists (and many other healthcare positions) are pretty understaffed in most major cities in the US rn so who knows. Plus the qualifications for it aren't as competitive as doctors and nurses this course is only 4 weeks and I saw plenty that were 2 weeks and all of us will be considered equally qualified.
I know for a fact that after my courses I will have at least 11 days free tho so I'm gonna keep playing. I don't remember how many days the Ray route after ending is but I'm really hoping that I can get it done after my course while the good ending is still fresh in my memory. I want to replay basically all the routes at some point for a refresher and because I just love the story so much and I want to fully remember all the silly little things said in the chatroom that don't necessarily matter to the overarching story but that make you feel that much closer to the characters. Reading these conversations that I'd forgotten has reminded me of a lot of jokes within the fandom that I'd forgotten too. I was SUPER active on Mystic Messenger Amino in the past lmao. That was also the Amino I had the most followers and friends on like apparently people really liked my posts tho I didn't consider myself that interesting or funny. I roleplayed a lot on there and I sometimes made (mediocre) art but most of my posts were me making jokes and memeing and sharing funny screenshots from the game. I made a post once that didn't get featured but it was pretty high on the relevant page because it got so many likes and comments on it and it was literally just a low quality meme I made about a conversation between V and Jumin where V said "I see" and Jumin made a shocked face. Like I was not a funny child lmao that was just an extremely overdone joke in the fandom but I hadn't seen it yet because I avoided spoilers and only just found out about V and immediately posted a joke about it. Okay maybe that particular one was a hivemind bit but idk calling myself unfunny may just be my insecurity cuz all my life people have said I'm like VERY funny and I never believe them. It's just so exaggerated like I'm kinda funny I'm not a master of comedy.
I really miss the MM Amino days tho they were such a vibe. That was back when I was only mildly socially anxious so I was still fully capable of putting myself out there in the right conditions. I was still very awkward at school but MM Amino was where I thrived and had so much fun with people. Fandom spaces in general are where I'm more me. I was so obsessed with rp on there too. MM rp is really fun because the game is already formatted as a group chat for the majority of the story so the rp is very immersive. The chat background was accurate and people changed their pfps for it and downloaded the lil emoji gifs the characters use it was awesome. Sometimes people even downloaded the heart gif you get in game when you say something a character likes and they'd use it in the same way when someone in rp said something they liked which was cute.
I was very particular and would always exclusively join rps where Saeran was open. I've always considered both Seven and Saeran to be equally my favorites but the fanon personality that the fandom unanimously agreed on for Saeran post 707 afterend resonated with me A LOT and I felt as tho I did it pretty accurately so I loved being him. This was also before him or V had a route so I liked the idea that no one playing MC would flirt with me lol and since I was there the MC's and 707's usually got together for accuracy. Shortly after V's route did get released tho I found someone who recolored Ray's and Suit Saeran's emojis to the outfit and hair Saeran has in 707 after end and I was OBSESSED. I used those a lot in rp.
Funnily enough even tho I always rp'd Saeran I actually texted a lot like Seven out of rp. This game affected me a lot when I first discovered it I made that shit my whole personality for a lil while. I was instantly very attached to 707 cuz I always get very attached to characters that are initially super bright and bubbly and nice and then you eventually find out they're very sad characters (I was not okay lmao) and so my personality kinda melded with his. However, specifically when it came to texting like him that was very short lived because people found it weird and cringe and I was really heavy masking like that's even primarily why I resonated so much with him cuz he also masks a lot so I stopped doing that. I wasn't just texting like him because I liked him tho like it was hard to start reminding myself to cut out certain habits because it became natural to me I liked it. My outward mask did become a lot like his tho and that was much less noticeable to people because it still had all the influence that I'd had before. It also had a little Sayori in it cuz I was also obsessed with DDLC around then and Sayori is basically me fr. I also got his hoodie and I literally never wore any other jacket even when it was super cold and I needed a heavier one I'd only wear Seven's hoodie. People kept asking me if it was an Umbreon hoodie but I was never a Pokemon fan so I didn't even know what that meant I had to look it up after 5 seperate people asked. Once for Halloween they let us dress up (it was a uniform school so usually no) and I cosplayed Unknown and found out that apparently a lot of people find it weird to cosplay for Halloween rather than a "conventional" Halloween costume which is dumb cuz it's still dressing up.
My mom also randomly surprised me with a con that we stopped going to out of nowhere. My step dad and step brother have 4 day passes but weren't going to go yesterday so the day before she was like "let's check it out and see if it got better and if we should actually go next year." It didn't lol but given the little prep time I decided to pull out my 707 cosplay! I hadn't actually used it in forever but it's easy and comfortable so it was perfect. Someone even approached me in the expo hall and asked for my picture! They were so excited cuz there's rarely any Mystic Messenger cosplayers out and about anymore which is exactly how I feel every time I happen to find one at a con. I was carrying around these little red hearts I made out of kandi and I gave them one after they took my picture I'm glad they liked it :))! A few years ago I came across someone cosplaying Yoosung at a smaller con and when I complimented them they gave me a lil green heart made of yarn it was so cute!
UUUUGGGHHHH I missed this game so much and I miss the vibes I used to have when the fandom was at its peak! Literally the most chill fandom I've ever participated in I loved every second spent with the cool people of the Mystic Messenger fandom back then <33
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