recent stuffs - moitie, uni stuff, birth

this is easily the best worst and worst best summer i've had. either way i turned 19 a few days ago. don't really feel any way about it it just happened and i was there

ordered the moitie silver x black candelabra earrings (:: i plan to take the pendants and use one for a short necklace like this and the other for my regular black rosary. this is because that short necklace in silver x black is out of stock and it's the colorway i really wanted. i've just been wanting moitie jewelry so bad.... it's perfect for my dream uni wardrobe which is a sort of casual ega type thing - button up shirts with long skirts or pants with moitie & other gothic jewelry & accessories. just strong specific details. i hope it'll work out for uni bc it's very do-able, rather comfortable, doesn't take much time to dress in and not too showy and ridiculous. if i could dress showy and ridiculous every day i would. what i lack to do that is the energy and confidence. 

also i have this wardrobe already. i already dress like this most of the time it's just looking like that at a space like uni that i like to romanticize lol

i'm so excited for fall and winter you can't even imagine. i now have 2 very ega appropriate coats, a black very warm floor length one with black fur on the collar and a black knee length regular jacket fabric one. perfect for the uni wardrobe fantasy ::::333

another aspiration is to get way more good platform shoes. i really want these from antaina; i have demonia ashes-105s that are like 2+ years old and kinda falling apart; i can't wear them casually so these would be a perfect replacement. they are slightly different but still basically the same. they're the main thing i need because they go with everything. the other ones i want are these mary janes.... Good Lird this sole shape is fucking crazy. they're like the demonia kera-08s but better. i would get the kera-08s cause since they're sold at online stores closer to my location the shipping would be cheaper but i don't trust demonia. i actually have owned them before but because of their odd size chart they were severely too big and therefore unwearable. i sold them last year and won't get in the right size bc my ashes-105s are not as sturdy as i need. the sole started coming off a bit after like 3 months of wearing them somewhat casually....i'm not in a financial position to spend that much on shoes like that. also their prices have skyrocketed! when i got my kera-08s they were 66 eur excl. shipping, now they're 86 eur.... but i still want mary janes of this sort so these antaina ones seem to be the best option.

one of my main goals in life is to own new rocks. mid-calf ones specifically. new rock soles are so crazy i've wanted something from them for years. hopefully i'll have the money for them asap

and yeah uni lectures start tomorrow and i'm terrorized

it's 1.35 am and no i'm not proofreading any of this trash you can't change me this is what i am