my brain

sometimes i feel so empty inside and i feel like i cant tell anyone. i feel alone and icilated. i cry myself to sleep almost all the time. not necisarilly when im going to bed for th night, but also when i a nap. sometimes i'll just have tears going down my face and I don't even know why im crying. sometimes, I wish I was a game character, because then I could just get deleted. but I could respon or something if I wanted to. like in minecraft. I just, probably wouldn't respon. it's just videogame deaths aren't really as messy, and no one pays attention to it. I wonder why when someone tells someone "I don't wanna be here anymore, i anna disappear, that person decides to tell them all the reasons they should stay... but it's always for their own personal benefit?? it's like the only reason they want them to stay... is so that they can do something for them...

anyways, I feel fine. I just wanted to get my thoughts out somewhere.