Sooo, college is starting again on the 5th of September and while I am excited to meet my new classmates and brush up on my 3D modelling skills again, I'm also kinda scared and sumhow tired ahead of time(???) even tho i still have 5 days of rest left and basically did the bare minimum when it came to going outside ??? i went to the cinema twice, gf came over for 2 weeks, i went on vacation to go to a cosplay festival for 4 days with like, 3 friends and my mom and then i ran 2 gigs, 1 for building a PC for a small indie VTuber and 1 3D modelling gig, which made me like- 130-ish euros, total?? and this all in the span of 7 weeks. This sounds like a crazy insane amnt when i sum it all up, but sumhow, i still feel bored and derealized, like im not living life to the fullest or only experiencing the things i do for like-- 40%?? Can any of u relate ? Cuz i feel like this rant is 90% fuelled by my lack of sleep LOLZ !!

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