Life Update (8-30-23)

With the new school year starting, I've been really stressed. But at least i like all of my teachers this year! Today was a really good day and pretty easy going. My friend dropped me off at home and i got the worst news, something i never wanted to get. 

My cat died. My baby. I know it sounds basic like I'm trying to get pity but that was my son. He saved me from ending it and he was really sick. I knew this day was coming but just not so soon. I wasn't able to be there when he died but at least i was able to bury him. I really miss him. My house feels cold and empty now. I had to lie to my boyfriend about it and it made me feel horrible. My boyfriend was at work and i had to wait until he went on his lunch break to tell him. Him and my friend are trying to get me a new kitten but i have a feeling it won't work out. Nothing ever works out for me. I don't want to get my hopes up.

My dog is in poor health so i have a feeling she'll  be next to go. It just feels like my life is falling apart. I feel so fucking lonely despite being surrounded by people. I know i shouldn't be this way but I'm just so fucking stressed out..