Junior Year!!

Junior Year

AHHHHHH HOLY SHIT I DIDNT THINK I WOULD MAKE IT THIS FAR IN LIFE THIS IS SO UNREAL??? ALSO MY LIFE IS STARTING TO FEEL MORE LIKE A MOVIE AND STUFF!!!

Like for example, I started taking prozac for my depression and i feel so much better, like last year i barely went to school and when i did I missed a whole class bc i was so late. It’s been about a month into the year and I’ve only missed 2 days, and have come to every class on time. Not only that I have amazing grades. Last year i was barely passing, this year everything’s above a 95%. Not to mention I have friends and a girlfriend and I hang out with people almost daily. That also really helps my moods and stuff. Idk i just finally feel like a normal person and I’m really excited. Having friends and feeling like I belong is like, all I’ve ever wanted in life. And now i have a place, where I’m wanted and respected. Its just so unreal to me. Also ive been dressing more like the way i want to and definitely have more confidence than before. I finally feel like the person im meant to be. 

Speaking of medication, i think the word side effects ive had on prozac is not being able to cry and getting tremors really bad from it. Which I was supposed to talk to my doctor with this week but due to the storm, I doubt that’s happening. I definitely think it’s working and worth it though 

ALSO!!! Last week my father found a whole pile of Todd McFarlane Spider-Man comics and I’ve been reading them like crazy. God I love the way he draws Peter and Mary Jane. 

SPEAKING OF I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL MY LOCAL SPIRIT HALLOWEEN OPENS, I WANNA SEW TOGETHER MY SPIDER SONA SUIT AND IVE BEEN MAKING DESIGNS LIKE CRAZY!!

Oh!! Also I’m working on a short film and i plan to post it on YouTube in time for Halloween, I’m super excited and nervous about making it since I’ve never fully directed something until now.

Oh and my birthday’s coming up and im super excited bc I’m gonna go to some punk shows and then there’s like a goth event the weekend of my birthday and then a comic con with a bunch of really cool people so WOOOOOOOOOOOO 

Sorry if this is kinda scattered but so much has happened and I haven’t really been updating anything I just have so much to say and share