staring of hell/ skating

hey guys im here.

today was the first day of school, i didnt like it but then lunchtime i saw him "the ex.." i wanted to choked the..  lets just say i fantasized about murder for the first time (what a good christan girl..) lmao-.. he came up and asked what i was eating for lunch "whos that stupid if u can see what im  eating.." i just ignored and kept eating

my teachers were okay i dont like one of my teachers her name reminds me of a naughty bad word lmao

today i was supposed to go skating and my grandpa says im fine and can stay here and dont need to go i wanted to so bad because i like these friends i relate to these people its not the people at school who just ignore me or bullying or some kind of fake friendship kinda shit.

well im older, now so hopefully i dont fuck things up or say the wrong thing and people dislike me but i found out in this world "nobody is going to like you" so you have to make yourself even  like you" its like some heart break shit  you'd probably hear on some high school movie 

skating part: oh no here it comes.... "i was thinking of sneaking out" but how would i do that

"hey pops, im going outside.." where uhm maybe to my "friend.." no that would suck

"hey im going to play at the park." he would probably go look for me.

welp i hope i can find a way.

xoxo, Rye

wednesday

august 30th