A BOY? college edition

ok to preface I don't talk to male people. Anything with a p3nis is disgusting basically like as long as it's masculine. no hate to the AMAB people in the world. IM TALKING ABOUT I DONT LIKE GUYS. unfortunately, I am bisexual. and I mean this because I wish I was a lesbian sometimes. But hashtag born this way I wish men were better at least idk. But something I've come to realize is that I think maybe a guy is talking to me like flirting with me. HE IS CHRISTIAN so I'm ok with it cuz I don't do the whole like hookup thing AT ALL. I think it's gross personally. no judgment its just not for me. But anyway he like is gonna be at this Christian group him and I are in and I'm shitting cement like shitting bricks cuz like WHAT. EVEN IS A MALE. I'm scared I don't even talk to men. I talk to like my uncle sometimes at family events and like my dogs are male and I look at them like cus they're cute. But I don't talk to guys cuz all they want is sex. HONESTLY. I know there's good men in the world but in my age group, all of them are pretty much not super lovely. I think I'm just gonna wait til I get older to start dating. but like soon tho I'll look into it. but my friend think he is really attractive so idk attractive people like guys don't talk to me like cuz I don't usually talk to people. THIS IS REVOLUTIONARY. idk he's christian so I hope he has morals and isnt trying to use me or get sex from me cuz guys have tried before. I HAVE FEELINGS I WANT LOOOOVVVVVVEEEEE. anyway I see him tomorrow confirmed. HELP 

side note: don't hate on me cuz I'm christian. like I don't hate anybody and I actually think hating people is bad like I don't hate gay people. and plus it would be weird if I did cuz I've literally kissed girls before so I'd be hypocrite. but no don't hate me pls thx <3