"being not straight" (I KNOW THIS IS A SENSITIVE SUBJECT) -not my title

god I'm do fawking bored!!

Anyway.

When I got to the age where everyone "got crushes" I just picked a good friend in Summercamp and decided to 'randomly like him' because everyone else also had someone to be obsessed with. (guess what: I even wrote him a FUCKING LOVE LETTER bahaha!!)

By the time I got more involved with the topic LGBTQ I actually thought I was pan or smth cos gender simply didn't matter to me. 

-but so didn't everything else. Of course you can say that 'you don't have to get into relationships at that age' -but let's be honest: every teenager thinks about those things, often or less often, intense or less intense.

I did too- at least I tried to do that. But here comes the funny thing :') - In those "imaginations" I never saw myself. In fact, I designed a new character every time. And I also never was in the situation, I was more like a neutral eye that inspected the things.

I mean, I guess I can tell when a person genuinely looks good- BUT THERE'S NO FAWKING ATTRACTION

Btw: this is not what I'm always talking about. God, i mean I really do support the LGBTQIA+ community I'M A MEMBER, OKAY. But there still is a life behind it. Just because i'm -gay- or whatever, doesn't mean that this is the only thing I'm able to do. cos I'm not. and so aren't most people out there.

So bye, my dudes, dudettes and dudon'ts!