I’m so happy

Today I saw a boy I love. I boy I like so much just being around him heals my inner child. Someone I’ve loved more than anything for the past 5 years.

I drive a hour and a half just to be with him and I’m more than happy that I did. We went to the mall and got lost together. I kept brushing against him. Touching him innocently because I just… need to touch him. I need to be around him. I love him. Hes so soft to the touch I couldn’t help it. 

We got some food together and I saw my friend I’ve ever seen irl! I met him though a mutual friend but I never thought I’d meet an internet friend before but I did and he was so sweet and pretty. I love him so much. PLO TONICALLY he’s the best boy I could ask for.

After we ate (the food was mid btw) we were gonna go to a mini golf thing or a escape room but it was to much money for me right then so i said let’s just go home and watch a movie. I saw his mom :3 she was so sweet. 

We went to his room and laid there and watched saw, and final destination, hocus-pocus, and some movie that was like.. the time control version of inception.

I honestly could not pull myself away from him. I pushed myself as close to him as I could possibly be. I still can’t stop smiling I’m so happy. I was vibrating and just smiling the whole time. He’s so funny and we’re so nice and comfortable with each other. Everytime he got close to me I couldn’t help but look away and just drown in my own blush.

He held me. He went behind me and wrapped his arm away me. He put his head on my chest and let me run my hand through his hair. Soft touches around his face. Sweet small touches… and then he held me. 

And we never had sex… that’s the best part.