Random stuff

It's been a while since my last blog post (I think?), and I really don't expect anyone to read these but I like writing them regardless.

I've been having a crazy intense hyperfixation on Shadow The Hedgehog for the past few days and I don't really know where it came from. I've always loved Shadow but recently he's literally ALL I'm thinking about, it's really silly.

I went to anime revolution in Vancouver last week for all 3 days, I had a really fun time but then I got (insert woman problems here) on day 2 which kinda fucked up my mood. Overall it was really fun though, and I'm super excited for FanExpo 2024. I got some splatoon trinkets from the vendors hall, and this Alhaitham poster from this really talented artist.

Speaking of Alhaitham, I've been really into genshin recently. I think the Gacha system is a complete scam so I'm not gonna spend any money on it, and they also ripped off like 60% of their features from Breath of The Wild, but it's still a really nice game. My favorite character right now (if you couldn't tell) is Alhaitham, I don't have him yet and I'm really pissed because I only just started playing RIGHT AFTER ALHAITHAM WAS HERE. If I joined like a few weeks earlier I would have got a chance to get him. I'm gonna pull for Zhongli on the next banner though, Zhongli is a goofy man, I've always loved him even before I started playing genshin.

Me and my friends have been going on various adventures together, we went on a 10PM walk to 711 and got munchies, we went to Cultus Lake Waterslides, and we've just been goofing and gaffing. I love them so much and I don't know what I'd do without them, sometimes I just feel like I'm too much for them to deal with or too energetic or up and down.

I also deep cleaned my closet the other day, it feels great to have a clean closet. I swear cleaning is therapy for me, man. I let my room get super messy and then I just spend a day cleaning it, listening to music or putting on videos in the background.

I'm still trying to get a job but nobody wants me because I have no experience. It's so stupid, even fucking dairy queen wants at least 1 year of experience in the food industry. Whether I have experience or not, you're still paying me minimum wage, so what the hell, man. I'm really scared I'm not gonna find a job in time to save up for Film School, I also just feel really bad for my mom because she's still paying for everything. I've spent $270 of my grad money (I got $1,000 as a grad gift) on food alone, and she said she'd repay that. On top of that, she pays for my phone and just dropped like $130 on my hair today (I got my hair dyed today ^-^). The point is I feel really bad that she's always spending money on me. She tells me that these things are essential and I shouldn't feel bad, but I cant help it. I also spent like all of my grad money which I also feel bad for, again, my mom tells me it's my gift, but I still feel like I should be spending it on something useful, and holy shit I do NOT have the balls to tell her I spent it already. I know I should just stop feeling sorry for myself and actually do something to change my spending habits, I plan on doing that when I get a source of income, it'll be a lot easier.

I'm very grateful for my mom though, things are super expensive today but she always manages to get me little things.

I didn't mean for this blog to become a rant about money, I'm just kinda typing whatever comes to mind. If you read all this then good for you, have a cookie *insert cookie here* ^-^