Worried about him

ENTRY 28

Sorry for the long wait, but I needed to talk about this, my boyfriend is a FTM trans guy and his family doesn’t know and I’d never out him. Recently his mom has been pushing all this stuff on him that’s making me feel bad since I know HIM, he had suffered from an eating disorder for some time before we were together and started fixing his diet when we got hooked. His momma made some bad comments about his weight and put him on this keto diet thingy and that pissed me off so hard since he’s been doing so well in his health. But what has been really digging in my skin is the fact she made him try out for cheerleading, and I know inherently it’s not a feminine thing but the idea of him wearing skirt and doing all that upsets me because I know he didn’t wanna do it, I feel like if he doesn’t eventually say no or hold his ground how will he ever come out, I’m tired of having to misgender him infront of his parents and mine. I love him and he works so so hard all day and now he has to come home sore every night just upsets me so, is this selfish of me? I just want him to be himself so we can be us eventually.

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