i need help ...

hello, its been a while!! i feel like i almost ALWAYS start a blog like that and tried to come up w something different, but i hav absolutely no creativity so ig we'll stick w dat lolz...

i kinda wanna talk abt somethings that hav been bothering me butz ill start w the good stuff first cuz y not...

soo. ive been doin stellarly in school and my relationship is doin great! i dont hav a looot of friends but im quite happy w the few i have, and open to more (a bit scared tho. last experiences havent been good but ive been treating that w my therapist :D), got a bigger bed and am v happy abt it and actually been taking my meds (ive been off of them for like a year at least so that maaay or may not be why i felt so deranged before) life feels a bit easier, but still lonely as im isolated from the world in this tiny town. I miss concerts, parties, hanging out and shit, and i hope that i get to experience a bit of it again this year's end, since my friends from the neighbour state plan on coming over (I feel like that WILL be complicated but we'll manage that too). Overall doing okay.

The important thing thats been bothering me is an ooold problem of mine that ive previously shared here in a uhm. distasteful way, if im being gentle abt it. Im talking abt the girl that "stealed my man", as ive put it in my post from last year (now deleted). Idk if yall remember abt the "stalker" post, but right before posting that, i talked to her to explain the situation, and just kinda made it clear i regret my past decisions regarding her and our friendship and alerted her to the stalker's "peculiar" and quite dangerous personality. She was not pleased about me talking to her and i understood it, so that was our last chat. Now, 8 months later and after seeing her in gigs randomly 2 times i kind of miss our friendship very much and want to rekindle it, because i believe we've both grown since then and can be friends again, at least from my part. The problem is: i searched for her in social media and i believe she blocked me everywhere, after our last conversation 8 months ago, but i really wanna contact her. from everyone ive asked, i got a mixed response. no one gave me precise answers and it was a 50/50 tie of opinions. Can someone help?