summer holiday

Hi 

I'm the kid that constantly struggles with school, like my grades are not good at all. I was always the one that was not good but not bad, but I wasn't worried about failing anything. Now I'm just dumb and nothing gets into my head, so I've spent all of the summer holiday trying to improve so next year will be better but I don't think that it will be. 

I don't know how to revise, and I feel like my health is getting worse and worse. it's annoying, because I've gone to the doctors constantly and they don't do anything to help me at all, like I will get told that something's wrong, then have a blood test done, then the blood test will come back fine, and nothing else will get done, so i have to repeat the whole process all over again. If i get a single person that wears a wig that tells me that I'm fine I'm gonna rip the wig right off like a scab

I also get so distracted, like I can't focus, like, ever, and I don't know how to fix it and it makes school so much harder. 

this entire summer holiday didn't feel like a holiday, it just felt like I was constantly doing something and resting feels like I'm wasting my time. 

One nice thing, though, is some new notebooks that my brother bought me with cute astronauts on. I love cute astronauts. 

I tried to search up the notebooks, and it's weird, because they just don't show up at all, but I've never been good with looking for specific things online, so that's my fault. 

ok I've finished thinking for now, thank you for being here!!

- Mimo