random blog post talking about life (?)

i started GED test prep today since i'm trying to go to college early! good news, i don't think studying for the reading exam will be necessary because all of the questions were relatively easy. math is a different story, it's all basically just algebra which i know/knew but like, i just need a refresher on it. so that's gonna take a little bit. and how do i even refresh on algebra if i'm not in an actual classroom? like, i need direction :( my mom says we're going to do the practice test questions for science and social studies tmr since we did math and language arts today. it's just so painstakingly boring and i feel like i have to pry my eyes open to be able to actually read anything on the screen. that's why i was so godawful at online school, i had executive dysfunction and just literally could not do it. 

i keep staying up all night and i just don't know how to fix it, and deep down i kinda don't want to because i sorta enjoy being away from my family at night, and plus, i love how dark and quiet it is. the sun is just painful to look at. i think i was a cockroach in some other life..  sometimes i wish my boyfriend could stay up all night with me but dear god i would not wish my sleep schedule on him!! he deserves the bestest and i feel bad for keeping him up even a lil bit late!! :C

i tried to fall asleep to music yesterday (i think it was yesterday) but like, atwtmvtvftvsgavralps came on and i was singing along in my head and i literally could not sleep because it was so catchy. i'm not even lying. i was like screw this. so i just put on my normal rain sounds. but then my brother was talking loudly so i changed it to thunderstorm sounds which i actually listen to more than rain sounds.

i don't think i have anything else off the top of my head to rant about buttttt yeah! i miss my boyfriend he needs to wake up :( anyways! yeah am i blogging right? i have no idea. but whatever!