me when i make the same mistake again

my last boyfriend and i broke up about a month ago, i a transman, who he continually misgendered till we broke up, would not give him what he wanted in a relationship and we end on ok terms because i understand what he meant and all. however in retrospect many of his. opinions were incredibly different from mine and we didn’t have many shared interests aside from me being absolutely head over heels for him.

here i am, now in the present. falling over a guy with all the same problems as my ex, differing religious and political, who also, like my last boyfriend. is incapable of viewing me as a man. but fuck if i’m not the type to repeat my old mistakes. he cute and i MEAN it. i’d do some DISGUSTING things to him. seeing him makes me blush. i feel the same way i did at the start of my last relationship this overbearing feeling of “i would do anything for him, even be his girl” even though i CANT. urgh what the fuck is a man meant to do!! i shouldn’t even think abt being in a relationship like that again but maybe it’s just be a gross horny young person driving me for this type of guy who isn’t good for me.