Future Stuffs Rant

I am so stressed! 

I am at risk of losing my residence permit to study in The Netherlands as I didn't get enough credits to retain it due to mental issues and personal issues that arose during my time in first year. Now, I have excusable reasons for not doing so, but I am too anxious to call the necessary healthcare providers and lawyers involved to get the proof I need to be excused for my lack of credits (which I need to submit by the 31st of August).

It's scary!! Not to mention I've got some issues with my tuition since my last major (chemical engineering) didn't kick me out I am still enrolled until the 31st of August (the due date of my tuition!!), and that means I need to pay double tuition somehow. And I am way too scared to call my admissions office to ask for help, but at the same time I emailed them 6 days ago and they never reached out to me to confirm. 

Dying inside, but still very optimistic though. I'm even looking for a bigger place to move in with my cat and boyfriend !