Kin posting

I am literally Dirk Strider from homestuck. Im him so much it’s insane.

The crippling hatred for myself while also having an insane need to be in control. Self centered but hating myself to such a strong degree I don’t even feel like I’m the center of everything but I PUT MYSELF THERE. I feel like a puppet master when I talk to people. They way I see their emotions. When I predict things about to happen and they do. They I know exactly how much control I have over a person. 

Motivation? Nothing. I just want to. I need to feel like this. I need to feel in control. I have to. My life sucks but the fact that I can just.. change someone else’s life. Just with a couple of words. It feel good. I feel like a person even though.. I’m not. I’m a spirit. I’m a.. thing. I will never really feel like a person. I don’t know what I am besides a mentally ill teen that talks to much tbh.