Collage blues

It’s only day 2 of being on my collage campus and I already feel so alone. I don’t know why.

I’m trying to socialize and acclimate. I’m going out to a club tonight. It just all feels so wrong. I hate this feeling.

I want to hang out, I want to relate, I want to feel good like I am when I’m in my room listening to music and creating things. 

I just want to make friends with a small group of people and hang out in parks at night or sit under the stairs and talk. 

I also just don’t feel close or intimate with my friends here. The ironic part is most of them have been my friends since high school or middle, and even then I found it hard to get too close. I thought collage would be a fresh start.

Any advice guys?