what am i doing with my human life

it is hard for me to admit but having structure in my day makes things make sense imean this to say it is summer break and i havent done anything not 1 single thing and i hate that so much i a very lazy person naturally and also having depression on top of that makes it so hard to even get out of bed but having school is sort of a motivator even though i also cant stand school and dont get me started on jobs good lord. and i want to get up and go outside and touch grass but theres literally actually nothing to do but also swarms of tourists so going out is a whole ordeal. and im trying to motivate myself to make art or website stuff or just tidying up and i cant do it. in the words of l*na d*l r*y ive got that summer time sadness. sorry