11 | vibe is not good rn

still just having those moments where I feel super grumpy and sad and feel bad abt myself. like it’s harder to do things. so I think I will stray from my usual format and reflect on some good things that i did and happened to me this summer instead today.

even tho i am having trouble studying ahead right now i actually did a lot of schooling this summer. i did a summer class to get extra credits for my school and got CPR certification. I was also successfully able to go part-time the next school year so it’ll be (hopefully) a lot more easier to survive next semester

job wise even tho i might not be able to get this job in time, i did learn a lot about talking to people and the job process in general. I wrote my own resume and multiple cover letters for the first time. I like to think ive gotten better at talking to people professionally.

i also helped renovate my room and got a new pc from my boyfriend. the first one ive ever had!! which is nice because I was using my 10 yr old laptop last time. I’ve been also able to see him a lot more

since im actyally taking care of myself now I notice a lot of physical changes too. like im generally more cleaner now and my house doesn’t look like a consistent mess anymore. The way it was before was embarrassingly bad, like to the point where I do not want to go into detail w my 1-2 readers out there loll

i also went to my home country and was able to attend my grandma’s death anniversary and my childhood home, so it was a nice closure.

and I guess the final thing is that I actually managed to set up a consistent, running blog (for now lol) and spacehey profile.

ok that’s all today. Thinking this out really did help me feel a lot better.