capitalism is inherent to the thing

I have a shred of self-righteousness and stubbornness left in me. 

nasty fucking personality traits that sear through my skin and brand all of my decisions with the smell of burnt flesh and self obsession.

I hate them. 

but.

they tell me that this isn't fair.

and I'm inclined to believe them.

something has to give. they will not let it be me.