8/14 4th day of school

The first four days of school have been, over all, good to me. I love my classes and my schedule, and it seems to be the kick off to a good school year. 

Be something happened, not a serious something (to me at least) but non the less, something happened

My friends have a sort of DnD like thing on some Google slides. Long story short, one of the guys(k) got mad at another guy(f) because his character got killed or something. K then decided to “get revenge” by tell me that F likes me. This is a well known fact to me. I screen shotted the messages and sent them to F. That then sent him into a spiral of “But are you my girlfriend?” “I thought we were dating!”

I did not see it that way, I in fact didn’t even want to talk about it more than we already had, which was him awkwardly telling me he liked me over discord two months before! DISCORD! COME ON MAN!

After that… confession.. I had decided that, huh, may I did like him, but it still felt very odd and uncomfortable to me. I then decided to invite F roller skating with me, I also invited T, who we both had English with the prior school year(the confession was a week after school let out). I decided to do this because I felt T would be a buffer between us, but that didn’t work because T is on his phone all the damn time. So, F and I awkwardly skated together (the man cannot skate, his skates sound like horse hoofs).

We then went skating a second time, which wasn’t much better, I didn’t invite T but not like he made that much a difference any way. It was fine, but still, it was kinda weird holding his hand going negative 50 miles an hour with him clomping around.

Then school started again and the whole revenge DnD thing happened yesterday and now we’re here. The morning after that whole thing happened, I went into my bio class. We were doing a murder mystery thing because it’s the first week of school. The paper me and my friend got was about a woman with the same name as me killing her boyfriend. Terrifying. 

I then told this to my mom, which she thought was hilarious. We talked about it a bit and she brought up some good points. If F really liked me that much, why didn’t he invite me to anything? Or plan anything? The two times we did something, I planned it. He didn’t really do anything about liking me, you know? If he was so convinced we were dating, why didn’t he, like, ask me on a date or anything???

This has become very long, and very not about the first couple days of school, but this has been gnawing at my mind for the weekend, and I have no girl friends to discuss this with, except for a girl who had the same thing happen to her WITH THE SAME GUY BTW but we already talked about it at the freshman mixer the school hosted. I would talk about it more with her, but she then immediately started talking about how much she enjoys yaoi. (power to you sister but there were people IN OUR IMMEDIATE VICINITY as she talked about it) Again not shaming yaoi lovers, but there’s a time and a place for stuff like that.

So yeah, it’s been an okay couple of days