Turning 20

Ughh I’m kinda feeling excited and scared at the same Time and I have no idea why, when I still have a lot of time but time flies and even though nothing is going to physically change once I immediately turn 20, I know it’s inevitable. That’s probably the only scary part. I have 4 months after this month (august) until my birthday. I think it’s more so death of a teenager but technically you’re still a kid till you’re 25 because that’s how long it takes for your brain to develop. Either way I am very excited to see what my life holds. I feel like I’m behind than most people my age and I guess that plays a part of it too. I sometimes worry that I don’t have enough memories that I would like to have at a certain age, but there’s nothing i can do for the ages I’m not anymore. I wish I could document a lot of things. But I know I can’t unless I physically bring a camera every where I go… Which I tried but everyone around me thinks it’s kinda annoying well at least I think — they think it’s annoying because how they react to it lol. I don’t remember a lot of things and I just thought it would help out one day. Also I’ve been reading a lot of books lately, if anyone has any books they would like to recommend that could help with turning a certain age?? I really appreciate it! Thanks <3