TW: venting, paranoia, delusions, and leon kennedy?????

so ive been getting really bad delusions and paranoia recently- i keep convincing myself im being watched and that everyones aganst me and that kinda sucks fr. im starting to think i have schizophrenia but im scared if i tell my mom shell think im faking for attention and im trying to mske her feel bad or something because shes taking so long to get me therapy. idk i just have no idea what to do and i dont wanna tall my friends because i know they probably think im an annoying self diagnosing attention whore or some shit. i just think everyone hates me all the time and i cant fix it because im just fully fucking convinced im an annoying asshole nobody likes.

anyway today i was on pinterest and i kept getting leon kennedy edits reccomended to me and i was kicking my feet and shit hes so damn fine omfg