unknown

i think we all have something to say but no way to say it. there’s this certain thing that happens to me, and every time it happens i feel like i’m floating in a warm emptiness. with nothing but me and my thoughts, as two separate entities. listening to pretty japanese city pop while watching the snow fall from the comfort of my room, allowing my body to sink to the bottom of the pool and float freely, bts, frozen strawberries and ichiko aoba in summer…. all of these experiences give me this certain thing that can’t be matched. thing, as it cannot be described. experience, feeling, emotion. i don’t know what to call it. it gets my body warm and calm, and my heart slows down to a perfect and comfortable beat. like sinking in a scary, but welcoming darkness. i love that thing. that experience. that feeling. that unknown.