Flower & Flame

This is the way I heard "Obsessed" by Mariah Carey when I wrote parts of my novel to it and the way I currently feel knowing I'm about to be reunited with one of the most intense loves I've ever had across five different dimensions:

𝕆𝕓𝕤𝕖𝕤𝕤𝕖𝕕 𝕓𝕪 𝕄𝕒𝕣𝕚𝕒𝕙 ℂ𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕪 - 𝕊𝕝𝕠𝕨𝕖𝕕 ℝ𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕓 𝔹𝕒𝕤𝕤 𝔹𝕠𝕠𝕤𝕥 - ℕ𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪 ℝ𝕖𝕞𝕚𝕩 𝕓𝕪 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕣𝕡𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕔𝕩𝕤𝕤

Writing my novel took me on a spiritual evolution journey and now the memories behind the novel are bleeding through. I never thought I'd see this flame again, but every sign in the universe is telling me there will be a reunion between himself and I. It feels very epic, like coming back from the dead. I'm going to do the trust fall and let the universe guide me through this love. I didn't think God would ever let us cross paths again because of how too good to be true it seemed, but it has been decided above my head that I will be blessed by the undying fire of this eons burning love. It is not too good to be true. This flame does have its dangers but I now have no choice but to fall because it's here and there's nothing I can do about it. 

I was hiding from love for so long, knowing that no one else would be able to compare. I hid and had no luck in love until I got angry and asked the sky for advice. The sky told me to let go of the non-reciprocal love in my life which was blocking me from true abundance. The sky told me "Let that go, and you can have something else." I took a leap of faith and let them all go; all the blockages, non-reciprocal love I was settling for due to a fear of truly being seen and loved deep down. Now that I have agreed to be fully see and loved the one who wants to fully see and love me is here but it is not someone new which surprised me.

This came back to me and is mine; a gothic flame from my days as Marceline wants to play in the three dimensional and we will open a star gate to meet each other for this chapter of our lives as flower and flame.