advice plz !!

idk y but evrr since i learned wat vaping waz i wanted 2 do it + since recentlyy i've been going thru sum shit i just need a breakk yk

i've heard frum othrr ppl w adhd that nicotene can help w it but i'd also b fine w zero nic vapez 2

i feel liek just the feeling of the nicotene + the flavorz + deep breathing all put togethrr wud reallyy help me relaxx + kinda revive myself

i wanted 2 order sum disposablzz online + get them shipped 2 my house but my parentz will probablyy check my packagez + they rarelyy leave me home alone

i also don't hav anyy1 else i can ship them 2

my aunt vapez + she haz a few flair disposablzz in her house + her handbagz

idk if she'll notice if i take 1 + im not reallyy a fan of flairz frum the 1z i've tried tbh

i preferr small disposablzz w nice flavorz

i don't think i look old enough 2 buy vapez w/o needing an id so i can't do that

i live in nj so check the vaping lawz b4 giving me tipz

oh + don't tell me shit liek "save this blog somewher so when u get addicted u'll see how stupid u were" biatch ik i'm stupid idk y i'm doing this but if shit happenz 2 my health then oh well fuck it that'z my fault stop tryna save me frum this cuz trying 2 "save" me onlyy makes me wanna do it more