GBE Reincarnated #1 Loss

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Loss....

I've been tossing this topic around in my head for two weeks. I've written and rewritten this blog 10,000x in there as well. How will I start it? How will it end?

I've gone from heartbreaking to humorous, and back again.

I may ramble a bit. Bouncing from thought to thought. Hopefully I won't confuse you, as I often end up confusing myself🤷🏻‍♀️😂

Topic #1 Loss

Do I want to list all the loss I've suffered over the last three years? Because, each loss is intertwined with the other. Woven tightly together like a blanket made on a loom. If I leave one thread dangling,  and it gets pulled, the whole thing will end up a tangled mess. I will have to start again. Freeing each strand from the other, only to weave them together again.

I think about wrapping myself in that blanket.... Light at first, but getting heavier with each word I write. Heavy to the point where I'm bogged down in grief again. 

I don't think I'll go there right now. I think I'll choose peace instead of pain.

That doesn't mean that that blanket I've woven (then put to the side) won't wrap itself around me. Unexpectedly. Without warning, as the pain caused by loss and grief so often does.

No, I think I'll take a pass on visiting that pain for the moment. Reminding myself that the hurt from those losses won't define who I am. How I let them shape me will.