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hiya! this blog post will be a bit different and a lot longer than my others. i wanted to really add an extra pop of colour to this one other than just the usual purple so i wanted to change text colour on certain words! unnnnnnfortunately it would keep getting rid of the spacehey colours… so annoying!
also! maybe dont read this if youre like,, a super yandere hater
i know how bad yanderes are, its apparently an example of people saying “raggghhhh bpd bad look what theyre doing” (that or the opposite i cant remember) and im just thinking. wh. why make it so romanticised then? why do i love love LOVE the yandere aesthetic with heart eyes and knives so much? im not an irl yandere, far from it, i cant even punch people because i dont like hurting others. but. but but. ive been seeing so much about yanderes in a romanticised light that i cant help but think.. wow.. i wish that was me..! but i KNOW its bad. i KNOW. ive been eating up so much yandere media in my life; fanfics, videos, art, LITERALLY ALL OF YANDERE SIMULATOR,,, it was everywhere and i think it altered my brain chemistry!
sometimes i wish i was the crazy love heart eyes girl that goes after this one person who treats me nicely, sometimes i wish someone crazy with heart eyes went after me! but its bad and i know it.
i cant really help my fascination unfortunately,, im listening to my yandere playlist right now actually (now playing Memorabilia by Nine Inch Nails as of writing this) and i have a pinterest board of the aesthetic… and sometimes i still read yandere x reader fics if it hasnt got a cw for abuse cause i only like the posessiveness
tldr: unsupervised internet access lead me to kinda romanticising yanderes
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snwbunnigrl
ok so i think ur confused. i have bpd and i hav gotten hate online 4 calling myself a yandere in the past but yanderes help me cope with my every day struggles with bpd and it gives me someone to relate to, so its perfectly okay for ME (or others w bpd who dont actively romanticize bpd without disclosing the bad parts) to use the aesthetic bcuz i have bpd and autism. yanderes demonize people with bpd and they make us seem crazy. also the whole reason ppl dont like the "yanderecore" aesthetic is bcuz it romanticizes that stuff so much. being obsessed with someone isnt all pink hearts, lovey dovey kawaii. its having constant meltdowns when they reject u/are scared of u/when they dont text u back fast enough. its not being able to think ab anything else to the point where it ruins ur every day life and u forget to do basic things. it means getting taken advantage of by ppl who recognize ur attachment. it means being deemed crazy by everyone. it means having intrusive and horrible thoughts about that person and urself. it affects my life every single day. and if yuno gasai and stupid pink memes make me feel better, than i can do that. but my personality disorder is nobodys aesthetic. it is beyond dehumanizing to see the tweens saying "i have obsessive love disorder uwu
" bcuz once again those mfs use the yandercore aesthetic and just completely try to romanticize ppl with bpd and the make us seem crazy !!!!!
sorry i sortof went on a rant this is something i feel strongly ab. hope this cleared smth up.