I should hiatus for a while… This website is addicting, and I get envious of other’s blog profiles.

What!? How can you be envious of something like this?!

I’ve been visiting others profiles for a while now and I’m looking mine. Not that I find it ugly, whoever made it looks super cool. But I’ve been seeing people adding more and even changing some default setting that right now I have no clue how to change (I’m not familiar with css and html, but I learnt Java at university, so I’m familiar with some structure but not many commands).

The thing is just this.

The university has been stealing my time for 4 years now, and just this year it will be the final struggle before masterclass. I will be having fun, it I’m not having fun right now.

Seeing how many people can afford time and dedicate themselves to something they really like makes me sad because it isn’t the same for me. I want to know every html inspections but I don’t have so much time left for that.. yeah, not yet, when I’m much more free I will decorate my blog for the better.

Where is the envious part coming from?

From looking at others. Maybe it is genetics or past traumas, but I can’t stand seeing people having success in life (even if is the tiniest success. Decorate an html profile is a success, for me).

Is coding, I like coding. But people of course are better than me, and when I notice it more often, it saddens me. So many profiles decorated that even my Tumblr website is crying. (Now that I think of it, I should wake from the dead my Tumblr and adjust it for my projects).

I’ve been struggling with art too. I know in my bio it says I study digital arts, but the last time I drew was July 2022 for an exam. Now I’m doing it again (drawing, actually for an animation), but for the same reason. I wish I could draw from day to night, but it isn’t possible. But in my upcoming 2 years of masterclass I will draw like crazy for sure. Only there, I will stop being envious of others.

Masterclass is an hyperbole for stopping from being envious. I just need to distract myself from looking too much to others, and Spacehey is cool and all but maybe too cool for me rn.

Also, all these minors makes me uncomfortable… at their age I got bullied by my peers, so I don’t really trust under 18s (I don’t trust ANYONE but minors are evil and scary sometimes).

So… yeah. Next time I will be learning and looking for:

• Adding “blingees”
• Adding personality stamps.
• Character’s stamps.
• Modding html structure and default titles.
• Adding custom emoticons.
• Making my own layout! cursors-4u.com has so many cursors they inspire me.
• Fixed images components
• Loading screen

But if you need to talk or something, and if you’re not a friend, I got

private messages and friend requests under control.

I prefer not to talk with a minor, not because it

can jail me but I’m not comfortable.

bye bye!